There was a statement made in class this week that went something
like: the idea of prayer as a fantasy is held by cynics who consider any belief
a weakness or at best, a cheap tranquilizer for anxiety. This struck me as I was accosted by a similar
statement years ago by someone close to me I will call Harry. I was a blossoming “spiritual seeker” and
rather enchanted by the whole idea of God guiding my life and helping with the
tough issues I might encounter along the way.
Suddenly I felt weak and ineffectual as I considered the implications of
what Harry said. Maybe he was right.
Growing up Catholic I have never been without God, praying
at bedtime and going to church were just part of life. But it was just like a sort wallpaper of my
life. There was the ritual but not much
real consciousness in application. Oh,
it was deeply imbedded, I was scared to pieces I was going to hell if I let out
a profanity but that belief actually weakened me by teaching me a fearful
position in life.
The issue was that I realized that I had to take a stand not
with Harry so much as with myself to commit or not to this thing called
God. Was I weak? Was God and prayer panaceas for the wretched, ignorant people of
the earth? Or better (or worse) yet, did
what passed for education of mainline Christians make us weaker by teaching
about this being outside of ourselves who had all the power and living a life in
subservience to this power and therefore
to any other perceived authority outside ourselves?
When I heard Harry’s words I automatically defaulted to “hmm,
he’s older and more educated (read God-like) than I am so he must have an
insight about this prayer thing I don’t have.”
I didn’t fall back on my faith, it wasn’t that strong. I’ve been trying to figure this out ever
since. When I came upon new thought it
opened a door for me. Yes, I did get
involved because I thought I could get the money I needed and the stuff I
wanted by learning the right prayer process.
But I have a more insight now. That
stuff sucks you in but as I began to truly practice Spiritual principles my
perspective about God changed. As I have sunk into a deeper understanding of
who I am as a unique expression of God it has empowered me. I realize that I am not weak for having my
beliefs but am stronger simply by practicing this thing called prayer. Can I explain this to Harry? Nope, he’s got
to do it for himself. Standing on the
outside looking in just doesn’t work.
Can I, after 9 weeks of Metaphysical Theology, tell you what God is or
isn’t? Maybe a little. What I have learned is that God is an
experience and until one has experienced IT they should not mock the prayers.